On When The Fat Lady Is Singing Right In Your Ear
March 6, 2007 by discocisco
Sometimes, it’s time to go. If you’re lucky or perceptive, you realize that your ride is waiting outside – patiently parked downstairs while you wave your last goodbye and throw back a final bit of fizz to keep you buzzing all the way back home.
And then, at other times, you’re the last one to leave.
In a curiously sentimental review of the last few years – made possible by the bread crumb trail of idiosyncratic and marginally tragic blog posts – I realized that I was the only one left at the party.
One image – uploaded a week ago – has replaced several other (beloved) images from earlier posts. Things are falling apart and I highly doubt that my $4.95 monthly fee entitles me to the kind of help I really need from Friendster.
Readership has dwindled from a thousand visitors per day to a single daily comment or trackback ping – posted by a Russian spiderbot who wants me to follow a rabbit-hole link, oddly spelled and harsh on the eyes.
Things I once considered interesting enough to scream about now sound like little sermons whispered to a dissipated crowd, anti-climactic and facile to a fault.
This is not the blog that I started. And I am not the sad little boy who started it.
But thank you for watching the clouds with me, from the center of the little grey garden I was tending.
To be reborn, you have to leave behind the thing you became. And I feel ready to be reborn.
And all of this is like an echo.
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Of course now that you’ve said you’re ending this blog, you’ll get 87 comments telling you not to. Heh.
Perhaps now would be a good time to purchase that taquito cart you’ve always dreamt about. See, silver lining, dude. Silver lining!
Mmm… taquitos.
I guess since you won’t have a blog anymore, maybe you’ll have to actually start writing for paid publication.
Write books. Now.
I have to tell you this now…I started reading your blogs very very recently! I was way up on the tragedy ladder and had mostly nuthin much to smile about…YOUR blogs made me smile
They (and u!!) have meant a lot to me…I cant put it in words though! I have appreciated your thoughts for the day, the funny songs, the funnier cartoons, but most of all your hilarious and yet poignant style of writing! Just wanted to tell u again that u mean a lot…but I nor anyone can make or break you…U r ur own reward to yourself, man!! 
Hope u dont totally disappear!
Mmmm. What a nice note to end on. Thank you.
And there will be no disappearing. I’m just going to go slip into a little cocoon.