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July 5, 2005 by discocisco

Ten years ago, I graduated from college and moved into the city proper - with a basket full of ideas but no grandma’s house to go to.

That was a stupid analogy. I get it, believe me. But I’m protesting the backspace button today. It doesn’t make things go away, anyway. It just covers them up a with a new white slate ready for mistake.

So I got to this city without any real creative hobbies or “open” projects. And that felt like a problem, so I quickly developed an interest in photography - specifically 35mm black and white. You can’t very well walk around this world pretending to be hip if you don’t know how too make an earnest statement with a camera.

I was riding the subway – in the days before the sensible German automobile – with a camera in hand, ready to capture the moment at any cost.

Here’s what I found that fine Saturday morning in July of 1995. This was the first photograph that I ever snapped with a 35 mm camera. I gave up photography soon thereafter – not because I thought I was done with the medium – but because I think I managed to capture, in that first attempt, the image that I had been seeking. It’s called Morose.

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Today is a hard, hard day. I can’t tell you why. You’d kill me. But trust me - it’s rough. Combine the expressions of the two main characters in this photographic scene and you’ll start to get a sense of what I feel like today.

Twenty stories below my stomach, sits my heart.

I just felt like I had to say something about it.

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Oh yeah. I put up another song. You know what to do. Go to greatbigpicture.com and finger your way through the bowels of my poorly designed desite (to the song page, in other words). It’s at the end of the list and it’s called Last Pick. Dramatic, huh?

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